Friendship

I don’t know whether my friends know this, that I really treasure the relationships that I have with my friends. As long as it’s within my means, I will definitely try to help if a friend is in need. But since I might come across as independent/insensitive/unemotional, maybe some of them didn’t dare to approach for help…?

Looking back, I realize that I didn’t really get to keep in touch with my secondary school friends, and thus, it turns out that I only have 2 surviving friends. That’s kinda sad since I’m from a girl’s school and usually girls from girls’ school have very strong bonds. Hmmm, sorry to say, I only have strong bonds with only 2 girls and 3 of us are leading such different lives right now, I can’t help but to feel that we’re all drifting apart.

Turns out that my closest group of friends is from my uni days. Thank goodness that I stayed in a hostel to cultivate these friendships with this bunch of crazy people, or else, I think I really wouldn’t have many friends.

As I’m growing older, I begin to realize how vulnerable friendships can be, and how one has to “work” to maintain the relationships. Frequent meet-ups, frequent catch-ups are indeed necessary to ensure that there is an exchange of ideas, feelings and thoughts to keep that connection going.

Although I am keen to keep that connection going… how many of them have the same thoughts in return? Expectations and disappointments can affect the friendship and it will be such a pity to lose a friendship due to a misalignment of expectations.

Sigh.

Can I live without friends? I don’t think so… Without the support of true friends, I don’t think anyone can function normally! All I can do is to treat my friends with love and respect, and hope that I can get that in return.