Grief

Today is the last day of the calendar year 2004. And I must say that this year is ending with a sad note.

Although I am not personally affected by the killer tsunami, I cannot help feeling so sad for all people who have perished under the waves.

Rows and rows of dead bodies, with most of them bloated and decayed, I cannot imagine the horror that a family member will have to suffer while searching for their missing loved ones.

Sigh. Mother Nature has showed her wrath and decided to punish us.

May the dead rest in peace… …

Out - by Natsuo Kirino

Bought this book about 2 days ago and managed to finish it just about an hour ago. This book is written by Natsuo Kirino and translated by Stephan Snyder, first published in Japanese in 1997.

Just the illustration of the cover is enough to give you the creeps. The front shows the face of a girl, with a blade to her eye, as for the back of the book, it shows the same face of the girl, but instead of the blade to her eye, there is a thin trail of blood.

Every time when I fished out the book to read on the MRT (Singapore's subway), people will begin to look at me in horror, most probably thinking "what is this psycho reading??!!"

Of course, I derived some kick in doing that. ;p

Ok, back to the book, this story portrays 4 women and the hideous crime they have committed and the price they have to pay. The main characters are highly complex and it brings out the sinister side out of every living soul.

Am I capable of killing? I might if I am being pushed to the edge. When it is either to kill or to be killed, are you capable of killing another person?

This book is scary because it shows how very ordinary people might turn to monsters and murderers when they are being pushed to cross the line... ...

Neither ghosts nor ghouls is mentioned, but the auntie next door, whom you see every morning might just be capable of doing anything. Even killing. And that scares the shit out of me.

What an individual is capable of doing to another individual, is scary. Especially when it is committed with a sinister pleasure... ...

If you are looking for a thriller with a different setting (in this case, it's Tokyo), Out is recommended.

Nobody Knows...

Watched this heart wrenching movie yesterday but I did not shed a single tear. This is rather surprising since I am such a cry baby. In fact, the whole notion of watching this movie alone was hoping that I can cry in peace.

That did not happen. But I am left to be depressed for the whole of yesterday and today, most probably for the whole of this week.

The movie, “Nobody Knows” – “Dare Mo Shiranai” is directed by Hirokazu Koreeda, and its main cast: 4 beautiful and talented young actors and actresses.

If you like action and fast-paced movie, this is not for you. But if want movies that are sincere and set you thinking, you will enjoy the next 2 hrs and 15 mins while watching Nobody Knows.

The movie’s style is very subtle and honest. It did not attempt to glamorize anything nor did it try to exaggerate the children’s pitiful plight. But because of that, the movie touched my heart.

This might be a fiction, but I have never appreciated my mother more, and the fact that I was able to go to school and have a childhood.

It also set you thinking about being responsible parents and what children have to suffer due to selfish parents.

My god… I am soooooo depressed.

By the way, I am now reading a Japanese novel, titled “Out”. Author: Natsuo Kirino, translated by Stephen Snyder. Will touched on that when I am done with the book.

I am sick of... ...

I am sick of socializing and making senseless conversation to people whom I do not even want to start a conversation with in the freaking first place.

I am sick of being judged by the way I look, the make-up I put, the clothes I wear and the shoes on my feet.

I am sick of waking up in the morning and think of what to do for the rest of the day.

I am sick of the irritating comments that my boyfriend will make, especially about me.

I am sick. And my boyfriend thinks that I need help.

I think I just need a f**king job to take up my bloody time...

My bf says " Dont worry about looking for a job, STROKE AND IT WILL COME" ;p

Brazilian Wax... TAKE IT ALL OFF!

If the thought of screaming and writhing in pain, excites you and stirs your loins… hrm, I meant blood. You are the one whom I am looking for!

I challenge you to go for a Brazilian Wax! For guys, you can also do a Brazilian Wax if you really want to. However, except for my crazy boyfriend/porn-star-wanabe who claims that he is unafraid of the pain, I have not met a single guy who is willing to try!

It takes courage, guts and above all, vanity to go for a Brazilian wax. And yes, IT IS F**KING PAINFUL, BUT IT IS ALL WORTH IT!

Ok… some of you are have been living in some mountains, may ask: “what is a Brazilian wax huh???”

Different salons and spas have their definition of a Brazilian wax, but it is universally agreed as the “removal of all pubic hair, except upon request to leave a small strip of hair for aesthetic purpose”

In other words, some lady will make you strip naked and rip hair out of your most intimate body part, using warm wax. Sounds nice huh?

So why not shave? Some might ask…. Well, that is because:

1) You will not get the same baby smoothness as a wax
2) Every time when you shave, your hair roots will get thicker and thicker and you will DIE of pain on your first Brazilian wax when the hair roots are ripped off for the very first time!
3) Higher occurrence of in-growth hair and infections

The first time I tried Brazilian wax was about 2 years ago and I have never looked back ever since. It just feels so much cleaner and smoother and hmmmm… nicer. ;)

And of course, no more embarrassment of unsightly hair peering out of your *gasp!* bikini!!!

Anyway, here are some other advantages of a Brazilian wax:

1) Satisfy your hidden desire to be a porn star!
2) For once in your life, you can finally see how their pu**y looks like without fighting through a jungle!
3) You look really sexy wearing a see-through lingerie while seducing your BF or Husband
4) This then means that you will have better sex!!!! ;P

Ok… my friend, Fred (a girl, in case you ask!) just opened up her waxing salon - Screamworks in Balmoral Plaza, 2nd floor. Once I have her E-flyer, I will post it on my blog.

She is one of the best Brazilian Waxers around and I am not saying that just because she is my friend. Seriously, I have been to waxing salons in New York and Chicago, and I can guarantee that with Fred as the waxer, you will experience minimal pain but maximal personal service, and at a very reasonable price!!!!

And guys, you can also get waxing voucher as a gift from Screamworks. X’mas is coming, so why not get a gift that both you and your girlfriend/wife can enjoy????

;p

This is how I have been feeling ever since I am back in Singapore. Girls in Singapore are too bloody skinny!!!

For those who have heard me whine ever since I am back in Singapore… they would have realized that I only whine about one thing – My Weight.

Before I start whining AGAIN about how fat I think I am, let’s do a flash back to Chicago just a few months back… …

Shux ( a fellow Singaporean girl): I think I will have to lose a few pounds before heading home for Chinese New Year…

Me: HUH? Are you crazy? You are not fat at all… what are you talking about?

Shux: Girls in Singapore are so skinny… I will look fat by Singaporean’s standard.

Me (looking at her in horror): I’m sure not everyone is as superficial as you think; friends and family will still accept the way you are….

I AM DEAD WRONG!!!

Ever since I am back, I have lost count of the numbers of comments I have received regarding to the way I look. Friends, cousins, aunties, uncles, even my own mum and boyfriend commented that I have bloated.

“Wah… why you so fat now???”

“You a bit the bah bah now huh!”

“How come you face so swollen one???”

Sigh… the perils of staying in America and eating American food had finally caused my downfall. One out of every 3 Americans are considered obese, and I am considered sexy and slim in their eyes.

I have never ever imagine that I have to battle with my weight since I have always been a scrawny kid ever since from school, in fact, I used to get FREE milk from my primary school’s canteen because I was considered severely underweight. And in my secondary school days, I have been advised to eat more or else I’ll start being 2 dimensional instead of 3.

O well… Those were the good old days…

However, the funniest thing is that I have only put on a max of 2 to 3 kg during these 2 years (if my weighing scale is accurate)… and people reacted as if I have put on 30 kg.

The social pressure to be slim is tremendous in Singapore, with all the slimming advertisements, slimming pills, as well as, slimming spas and salons, advocating that Slim = Beautiful. Regardless whether one looks anorexic or unhealthy.

Thus, being spineless… I am now also being brainwashed by these horrible people who urge me to lose all my previous fats and flabs. Now being on a diet and some exercise regime has already trimmed me down a little.

Despite of me complaining and whining about how unreasonably skinny most Singaporean girls, I do long for the days where I can be toned, firm and lean again.

Nonetheless, enough is enough! I am going slap the next person who dares to make a comment that I am fat.