Feeling the need to pen down my thoughts again, although the fact that I have tons of work piling in front of me, the fact that I am right now in my office where I should be doing my work and the fact that my boss can just pop by any time to catch me skiving and writing blogs. Well... what the heck.

Just had a really great weekend, in fact, I should say, a mind-blowing weekend. Finally I managed to pick up a sport that I've always wanted to learn. Skiing. This is my second attempt at skiing and to my pleasant surprise, I have improved quite a lot! All these credit goes to my very dedicated skiing teacher, Koen although I should say that he nearly killed me, by declaring that I am ready for a blue trail, when I was not.

Nonetheless, I had the time of my life, falling in love with a new sport and I swear to myself that I must at least ski competently before this winter ends.

If you have been reading the load of crap above, I apologize. Those were not the reasons why I am feeling unsettled, why I can't concentrate on my work and why I just need to get this off my chest of writing it down.

I am attracted to a person that I am not supposed to. Yah, that's it. No big deal at all... I am sure many people out there have similar experiences before. Falling in love with someone whom you are NOT supposed to.

I am not trying to say that I am falling in love, I am not. Just rather attracted to someone who is happily in another relationship. Now that I am writing down my thoughts and emotions, it just hit me again how silly I have been again.

Men are surprisingly heartless creatures, they can tell you in one second that you are the most amazing girl they have met in their lives, and within the next few seconds, they cant even remember your name. And we are not even talking about those who are drunk or high on drugs here!

Here I am, hurt and puzzled why the other party didn't bother to call nor email nor follow-up where there was obviously a strong attraction between the both of us.

I guess he is just doing me a favor as well. I am afterall, happily in another relationship. We were both attracted to each other. But not enough to screw up our each, respective relationship.

Ahhh... At least I feel much better now. Less confused and more certain about how I am going to deal with this. So you'll be asking :"Aren't you going to call him up?"

My answer: "NO". Things should stay the way it is. We don't belong to each other and never will. We'll have better memories of each other anyway. If he can think about me once a while, that's all I can ask for, I guess.